Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Identity Essay (Un - Revised)

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In this unrevised form of my essay i am unaware of paragraph breaks, there is awkward phrasing that doesn't flow properly. For example, "Weather our personal beliefs are religious, self experienced or we get that icky gut feeling about something depends on our thoughts as individuals." These ideas don't flow together. Also my citations are not properly noted, they are missing page numbers.


Family comes in many shapes, sizes, colors, backgrounds and cultures. My own personal family is a unique shareholder. My parents included are loud, young at heart, comedic and loving. They both are responsible for my confident, enthusiastic, challenging and kooky personality. Starting with my mother, she has been my best friend and support group as I have grown into the woman I am today. She has got my back and taught me to not be afraid to express myself as she says, “the people who are mean to you are jealous, because you are a beautiful, smart young woman who is going places in life.” Along with my tag team of support my father is the most comedic. When I would get upset at anyone, like my boyfriend for example, he would say, “I will get your cousins to beat him up, actually you’re my daughter you can beat him up yourself.” My father then cocks his head back and then lets his cackling laugh echo throughout the house. However my parents aren’t the only parents who’ve made an impact. Queen Latifah credits her mother in her essay,” Who You Callin’ Bitch,” for her sense of self. In her essay she states, “I learned at an early age that nobody has the right to call me out of my name. The first time someone called me a tomboy I went home crying to my mother. She told me to go back out there and tell that boy, “You’re not a tomboy you’re athletic!” I define who I am. My mom planted a seed in my head that day.” In addition to Queen Latifah one other woman credits her family for her identity. In particular she credits her grandparents for her sense of self. Bell hooks demonstrates she not afraid to be herself in her essay “Baba and Daddy Gus”, this is a quote from her grandmother, ““ Ya have to be right with yaself in ya own heart – that’s all that matters.” Baba taught me to listen to my heart – to follow it.” Both of these women acknowledge their families for helping them become confident in who they are, along with encouraging them to stand up for what they believe in.

 
Personal Beliefs help us decided where we stand in this world. As a result beliefs can also define who we are. Weather our personal beliefs are religious, self experienced or we get that icky gut feeling about something depends on our thoughts as individuals. Furthermore some of my personal beliefs included are, we are who we decide to be and we can take guidance from those surrounding us, but in the end we take responsibility for ourselves. Other people like Queen Latifah believe, “A queen, a woman with self – esteem, handles adversity with grace. Even when her world is crumbling around her, she never lets her crown fall.”(Who you Callin’ Bitch) Queen Latifah speaks out for women. In the same way she understands that life is hard and problems will be thrown at you, but it’s how you handle the situation that gives you the self deserving name of a “queen”.

Reflection Letter

I am a hard working, creative, kooky individual. My life is busy; I work full time while attending school. It's always a challenge to manage my hectic schedule, but I make it work. Recently i have been taking courses in english, math and science. These are all stepping stones to my teaching degree. The classes I am taking are the fundamental basics that help me understand various concepts. Concepts that i will take into my teaching career when teaching young children. However, through taking these classes I have found out some new and interests of mine and a different view of the world around me.


English 101 specifically has helped me understand tradition, communities and identities that apply to everyday life. Through our intermission sessions I have learned about life as a social outcast and as an immigrant, trying to establish a life in America. Seeing how people view individuals by ethnicity, apparel and religious values have challenged my perception of living in a diverse community. I have been taught that judging a book by its cover could really steer one away from it enchanting contents. In addition i have also learned that everyone is from a different background and way of life, but as we live amongst one another we learn to embrace and practice what makes us so unique from each other.


In this chapter of my blog i have included four pieces I wrote. These pieces reflect what i have been taught in English 101 this quarter. Included are two essays, a blog entry and group discussion I participated in. The first essay shows my ability to analyze a community and how they except outsiders. The second essay shows my ability to revise and re - evaluate my ability to write. In this essay specifically i wrote about identity and how we find it. The blog assignment is to demonstrate my voice and awareness of audience as I speak about how I belong to a specific community. Lastly I have included a discussion board I participated in to show my creativity and to let people know who I am. This discussion is about my first name and how I relate and act towards it. I have been taught many new skills about myself and others by playing a role in this class. I now invite readers to share what I have learned and let them acquire a understanding of who I am.

Analysis / Critical Thinking Introduction

To analyze is to examine something in detail in order to understand or discover more about it (research books). I personally have been able to express my analysis through interpreting particular movies. One movie in particular is the Lars and the Real Girl. This was a meaningful movie, about one man’s involvement in the community, and the things he did to become a part of society. I took this movie and watched in three times and examine the message this movie was delivering. I illustrated how Lars’s small town community reached out a helping hand in accepting him and his imagination. One example is this quote from my essay,” Once the community realizes that Bianca is helping Lars break out of his silence, they accept Bianca and involve her in the community cause Lars to come into his own as well.”

Revision Introduction

I have many creative ideas that I enjoy incorporating into my essays. However I often tend to go off subject, because I get lost in my train of thought, and when it comes down to punctuating my skills need some work. These errors were clearly demonstrated in my first paper I wrote for my English 101 class. In this paper we were expected to write about identity with supporting evidence from our week’s readings, with paragraph coherency and thesis driven. My essay struggled in all these areas. My supporting evidence was lacking proper citations. The paragraphs weren’t separated properly as I changed topics and my thesis became lost in my paper. However through thorough editing this experience taught me how to organize my paper more effectively and properly cite my sources.

Audience and Voice Introduction

An audience is there to listen to you speak and hopefully learn from your experiences. I wrote a blog about the community I belong to. This community is the full time student and employee. This blog really invites in the readers, and shows them what life is like from my perspective. This form of public writing illustrates voice because it is about personal experiences that many individuals can relate to. For example in my blog I state, “in this community you’re always going, going and going with very little breaks. Often left wishing there were just a few more hours in the day. ” This relates to my community as well as everyone else leading a busy life. My voice is strong in this blog because I use my own experiences to support my statements.

Writer's Choice Introduction

I want to include a blog I did, that I really enjoyed. A blog was done in which I discussed my feeling towards my first name. I enjoyed this assignment, because it allowed me to be goofy and introduce myself to the class. I was able to be my corky silly self with this line, “Guilty of my different nicknames I was often called Sam, Sammy, and a special thanks to my grandma for Sam-Bo (lovely).” Asides from this quote I also enjoyed this expression of myself, “However I find my nickname Sam amusing when I hang out with new friends, and their boyfriends’ call, and ask why they’re spending time with another guy other than him.” I just felt it was a great assignment that I was able to express myself and allow peers to laugh alongside with me.

Samantha : What a Name

Samantha has always been a fairly common name, and while growing up through school I have always had another Samantha in one or more of my classes. At one point in time there were three of us. This resulted in me being called by my last name, Wallace not so common, but not as pretty. Guilty of my different nicknames I was often called Sam, Sammy, and a special thanks to my grandma for Sam-Bo (lovely).


However I have never disliked my many nicknames really, well maybe Sam-Bo it’s a bit goofy, but I can stomach the others. I find my nickname amusing at times, because when I hang out with new friends, and their boyfriends’ call to say hello it is always the same funny response. These boyfriends sometimes aren’t filled in that I am a woman and they ask, “Whose Sam? Why are you spending your time with another guy besides me?” It is absolutely silly, but I am glad I never became Derek, because for the longest time my parents thought I was going to be a boy.


As I mature though I tend to lean more towards Samantha, because I like my name to sound more feminine instead of the masculine opposite Sam. Even so my attempts become useless .Sam seems to linger around a stick to me like glue. All in all I don’t believe I could ever change my name, because I can’t think of another name that fits me as well , so as far as I know Samantha is keeper.

Lars and the Real Girl Timed Write

The day Bianca arrives the excitement in Lars's demeanor shines through, as this is his unconscious approach to becoming an insider. Bianca is real to him and he expresses this excitement to his brother and sister in law. While introducing Bianca to his siblings they express shock and amazement. His siblings consult a doctor and are encouraged to play along. However to their surprise Bianca brings Lars out of his shell and they notice he no longer hides in his home anymore, or avoid social gatherings. One social gathering in particular shows Lars’s improvement as an outsider. Lars is invited to a co workers birthday party in which at first he declines. However when he gives it more thought he convinces himself to go as long as Bianca is able to come with him. At this party Lars interacts with many of his co workers and their friends and even goes so far as to dance in the crowd. Bianca is Lars's guidance to inside life.

Bianca hypothetically encourages Lars to bring her into the community around him. Once the community realizes that Bianca is helping Lars break out of his silence, they accept Bianca and involve her in the community cause Lars to come into his own as well. In the film Bianca becomes an important figure on the school board, a model in a local town clothing store, and a volunteer at the hospital. One scene in particular shows Bianca reading to a group of young children. This makes her a symbolic figure for Lars to come in to the world and be a part of it. Bianca does things that Lars never has. For him Bianca makes herself part of the community and participates in meetings, and she is socially involved in everything around her. Lars has her do these things, because they are things he wants to do. Through Bianca he is not afraid to be who he is.

As Lars progresses in his recovery to becoming an insider he slowing starts killing off Bianca in what he blames on a life threatening illness. Unconsciously he is killing Bianca because he has used her to become a part of society again and now that he is healing he no longer needs her to be a part of the inside life.

Fulltime Work and Student Load ( Community Blog )

To begin a community is a social group of any size whose members commonly share the same cultural and historic heritage. (Dictionary.com/community) Once you’re a part of a community a series of bonds hold community members together. I am member of a full time working and school attending community. Every day I force myself out of bed after staying up late finishing my everyday homework, after a long day at work, and glue myself to a computer screen earning my education. However I am not the only one living this temporary life.

The question is what drives us to keep living this hectic lifestyle? It's not easy to work full time and attend school. However it is done because people want a better life. These people work full time because they can’t afford otherwise. The people seen working full time and going to school full time, typically live on their own and rely only on their selves for survival. It comes down to self motivation and future goals that hold this community together.


This community requires a great wholesome support group. The full time community values sleep among all other things and are interested in self achievements. Self achievements are those such as finishing homework in advance in hopes on establishing a social life.


Tensions working against the cohesion of this community ideally are time, and motivation. Full time individuals are in constant motion going on continually with very little breaks. Often left wishing there were just a few more hours in the day. Motivation helps drive members, but it is easy to burn out. Members of this community become experts on managing time and pushing themselves to the limits.


I am a member of this group because this ever going cycle of working, school and sleep deprivation is on constant replay almost every day. However I want a more promising future and if a degree will get me there I will get it. I didn’t plan to be become part of this community, but the outcome of hard work and appreciation keeps me going strong.

Identity Essay ( Revised )

However my parents aren’t the only parents who’ve made an impact. Queen Latifah credits her mother in her essay,” Who You Callin’ Bitch,” for her sense of self. In her essay she states, “I learned at an early age that nobody has the right to call me out of my name. The first time someone called me a tomboy I went home crying to my mother. She told me to go back out there and tell that boy, “You’re not a tomboy you’re athletic!” I define who I am. My mom planted a seed in my head that day.”(35, Who You Callin’ Bitch)

 
In addition to Queen Latifah one other woman credits her family for her identity. In particular she credits her grandparents for her sense of self. Bell hooks demonstrates she not afraid to be herself in her essay “Baba and Daddy Gus”, this is a quote from her grandmother, “Ya have to be right with yaself in ya own heart – that’s all that matters.” Baba taught me to listen to my heart – to follow it.” Both of these women acknowledge their families for helping them become confident in who they are, along with encouraging them to stand up for what they believe in.


Personal beliefs help us decide where we stand in this world. As a result, beliefs can also define who we are. Some of my personal beliefs included are, we are who we decide to be and we can take guidance from those surrounding us, but in the end we take responsibility for ourselves. Other people like Queen Latifah believe, “A queen, a woman with self – esteem, handles adversity with grace. Even when her world is crumbling around her, she never lets her crown fall.”( 35,Who you Callin’ Bitch) Queen Latifah speaks out for women. In the same way she understands that life is hard and problems will be thrown in, but it’s how the situation is handled that gives the self deserving name of a “queen”.

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